"Should" is no good...
It's 1am and I am wide awake...so annoying! I would love to be sleeping right now and have found myself laying down and within 30 minutes getting back up and coming into the living to watch some TV. Back and forth back and forth. This time i grabbed my Bible and journal. I started to write in my journal and within the first few sentences i found myself pondering what i wrote. I told the Lord i was sorry I hadnt spent the time with him like i should ... SHOULD...that's where i stopped. I've been pondering for a couple of months now what it means to have a genuine REAL relationship with the Lord and not one built upon motion of routine of religion. You study for a test because you want to do good and you know you have to...i don't want my walk with the Lord to be like that. I KNOW i need the Lord in order to live the fullest life BUT I believe it can be so much more than that. Like any other relationship...you sacrifice for that person, you take time to spend with them, y...