...Just A Small Town Girl...

  You ever just sit and think about who you are the qualities and traits that make you YOU, and pick it apart. One thing I have found myself saying is “just tell me what to do and I’ll do it”…being the internalizer I am, I’ve been tossing that around and trying to dig into whether this is a good thing or bad thing and how to change it.   What I’ve realized is I’m a single mother. And I have no choice but to lead in my home life and family life bc it’s just me. I have to make the decisions, all of them. I have to know what to do and how to do it . I have to pay the bills and plan for the unexpected. There is no option. The weight of it is overwhelming at times and exhausting. It makes it hard to assert myself in other areas. It makes it hard to even want to lead bc my energy tank is in the negatives.  Is this a bad thing in and of itself? No…not everyone was made to lead. Not everyone was given the same creative drive. However, everyone was made to do the best they can and...

  Why do we ignore the need to repair the internal damage done to our heart mind and soul, but don’t question when it’s required for a physical injury.   You sustain a physical injury, we will say you blow your knee and tear everything in it. Immediately you stop. You stop doing really anything but especially what you were doing when you sustained it. You immediately go and seek out help and guidance of a professional. They then do an extensive investigation and diagnose the exact issue and then set up a plan of solution. Most of the time and especially when the injury is bad enough, you immediately begin the process of recovery. You schedule the surgery, apply the brace, begin the weeks/months of physical therapy. All things put in place to repair the broken and damaged part of your body. This process is rarely enjoyable or comfortable. It usually involves pain and frustration. Sometimes heart breaking realities, but the typical motive is to do what we have to do to repair an...