Mrs. Know-it All

Since the beginning of times we have craved answers....so much that we have placed "knowing" over LIVING. Look at Eden. Two trees...the Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. Woman and man desired the ability of "knowing" so much that they were willing to give up life itself. It blows my mind.

"16 The Lord God commanded the man, saying, “From any tree of the garden you may eat freely; 17 but from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not [n]eat, for in the day that you eat from it you will surely die.”- Genesis 2:16-17

Still today I fight this same war in my own life. Through Salvation in Jesus i have LIFE...the ultimate gift of living and beyond that, eternal life. However, i find myself clinging to the fruit of the OTHER tree. The forbidden tree. I live daily in despair and fear desiring to just "KNOW". I want answers. I want to know the pain that crouches in wait for me. I want to know WHY things have happened. I want to know how choices will affect life down the road. I want to know what's next.

The reality of this longing i find myself is that I , Bethany, am woman...NOT God. I am not the author of life. I did not speak this world, more or less ANYTHING of that matter, into creation. So, while i live daily, grasping tightly to that fruit of "knowledge" trying to see ahead the play before the game even starts, i live in sin. Consumed by the desire for something NOT mine to have.

Unfortunately the truth of life is that if you are living and breathing you will at some point be touched and wounded by the travesties and evil this world has to offer. You will be hurt, damaged, broken, and beat down in some way. We can not avoid that...we live in a world that though there is some good, there is EVIL as well and due to sin we are so very aware of it. My hearts cry is that I learn from Eden. Though the Garden is no longer available and a perfect world does not exist, that Tree of Life is very real. So real it took on the literal form of the Cross many years ago. A cross that Jesus Christ hung on in order to ensure LIFE and LIFE ABUNDANT for anyone that believes. I have the promise in that Tree of Life that no matter what pains or uncertainties find me on this road, i can rest assured that if im breathing and living i have a reason to PRAISE and REJOICE. I will never have the answers i want but what i do have is sooo much better a reassuring. The confidence that NOTHING can take away my LIFE Eternal promised and given by Jesus Christ.

God has been teaching me some things lately and this is just one of them. My new prayer is that i let go of the "forbidden Fruit" and cling to the Tree of Life. A fruit that never goes bad.

10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and [a]have it abundantly.- John 10:10

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