Give me the broken...

 The other morning I did something i normally do not do, and turned on the live TV. It was early and I really just wanted some light background noise . I chose LIVE With Kelly and Mark. This particular day they had Anderson Cooper. Again, just a means of background noise as this wasn't anything to distract my attention. I am not even sure what the overall show was about, however I did begin to tune in to one part. 

Anderson Cooper was discussing how his son had lost his favorite teddy bear and how this teddy went everywhere with his son. He had searched high and low and was at a loss of retrieval and had made a plea with the nation on TV to help find a replica of this teddy bear. Coming to the rescue he was able to find it and get a new one, only to end up finding the original beloved teddy under the front seat of his car. 

The part of all this that caught my attention was the picture they showed. Anderson Cooper stated how though he found a new version of the original teddy bear, it most definitely would not have passed for the worn and torn original. I could not help but laugh when i saw the picture of comparison...and very much agree with him.

My mind immediately began spin, relating this to the reality of us and the Lord. It is so common and maybe you yourself understand this personally because you yourself have something that you have treasured since childhood. Usually a blanket, stuffed animal, lovey...the list goes on. And these items are truly priceless, especially to that 2,3,4,5 year old who if given the choice of a brand new bear with nose in tact and soft fur, would every time refuse and want only their item, clinging and loving every hole and imperfection. 

You know the Bible references children with esteem and even probes us to be like children...Matthew 18:2-5

2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5"And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me."

It is not a complex concept for a child to cling to something so original no matter their imperfections and blemishes. However, as adults, that becomes such an unreconcilable belief. I know personally i struggle with the notion of becoming more so that i can be enough. I see every single mistake and inadequacy and can not fathom how not only would someone treasure me but CHOOSE me. But the reality is that even in my sin and weakness, the Lord created me as is. The Lord knew every weakness and broken piece i would end up with and yet day in and day out says i CHOOSE you and i choose you NOW. Not the "better" version of you, you reach for day to day. He reminds us that every wear and tear and weakness is testimony of who He is and what he is capable of doing. That even in our "death" there is such great life with Him. 

I think something we tend to over look is that the people in the Bible from Old to New testament were greatly flawed. And those flaws are plastered all through out the books. And all through out their life. There is reason for that. The ebbs and flows of this life are hard and they are turbulent. And even in your strongest seasons you can almost rest for certain that a season of weakness and doubt is around the bend...and that is okay bc Jesus takes us as we are and and it is He in us that brings new life to old  things. One day we have the promise of eternal restoration and physical renewal, but on this side of earth we are called to walk with our stories and our history, but rather triumphantly and victoriously that something so broken and worn can be so LOVED, VALUED, CALLED, and PURPOSEFUL. 

This is a lesson i will be replaying often as i need the constant reminder and an example of how i believe and have come to know that Lord is so present and can speak to us and bring peace and comfort at the most unexpected times and places.

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